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| Saturday, April 30, 2011 |
| i'm fed up of being lonely |
I'm fed up of being by myself. I'm fed up of not having a hand to hold. I'm fed up of not having someone to hold or someone to hold me. I'm fed up of having no texts messages from someone who cares. I'm fed up of rejection. I'm fed up jumping in a lonely bed. I'm fed up of having no one ask me how my day was. I'm fed up of having no one to kiss me when i come home. And mostly im fed up of having no one saying I love u and no one to say it back to.
But nevermind, i'm youngish. I've got loads of friends and even if i'm lonely for ever more i might as well make the most of lonliness.
here for a good time. not a long time Labels: experiences of life |
posted by Sachin Shresta @ 4/30/2011 11:21:00 AM  |
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| Thursday, April 21, 2011 |
| If I'd only known.... :( |
If I'd only known...
That this is the last time we've met... :(
I would have stopped the break of dawn.
And stopped to the sun to set...
If I'd only known...
That I wouldn't see you again...:(
I would have framed a picture of you within.
To end my suffering.. to end my pain...
If I'd only known...
That this is the last tome I sit by your side.. :(
I would have told u how much I loved you.
Keeping rest things aside...
If I'd only known...
That we would never hold hands again.. :(
I would have held them strong.
N never let anything go wrong...
If I'd only known...
That you would stand always by my side.. :(
I would have fought d world for you.
Breaking all d walls through...
If I'd only known...
That your love was true.. :(
If I'd only known that you would come back soon.
I would have waited for u to cum by...
If I'd only known any of this...
That you were what I was breathing for.. :(
I would have breathed last for you.
Seen you enough and bid you adieu..
While I can do now...
Is sit here...
Waiting... :(
If I'd only known.... :( Labels: experiences of life |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 4/21/2011 10:39:00 AM |
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| Sunday, April 17, 2011 |
| why do i not want a HEART that's numb? |
as you read this, have you ever felt this before?
> living your life each day as if you know what you want but deep inside of your fragile heart, is a heavy feeling that you can't get rid off because you already filled yourself with hate and bitterness from your former lover?
> even tho you know yourself that you still love that person and that you wanna be with that someone, you still refuse to say it just because that person did you wrong?
>when all you do is work on your pride and be on top because you got nothing else to hold on to?
> you try to forget things, because you know that if you remember your former, you'll be crying your ass off and you don't want to pity yourself no more so you'll rather go out there, and try to do new things and just have fun?
>when the only thing you wanted the most isn't your priority anymore becos it feels like, you're at the top of being the meany between you two?
> that the only reason that will soften your heart again and show that person your real color is when you hear that person crying on the phone already, begging you to come back to your old self just to be happy in the end?
hmmm... these questions.. the more you answer yes to all of these, the more your heart is numb.
believe me,, i've been there. and it's the worst feeling. it's like hiding yourself in a mask so that no one will recognize nor see the real side of you..
it's like trying to hold back your real feelings just to hurt that former lover you had even tho you still love that person.. you will try to act cool and be mean to that person whatever it takes just to hurt that person becos he/she hurted you..
it's like a revenge that bites you back becos, no matter how hard you try just to act tough, in the end, you'll still give in...
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yeah, that was what i felt before.. 2 year ago.. when my heart was numb the whole time... not knowing that things will only get worst becos i am not being myself.. this is a reflection from my past... it's been 2 years since i last felt that... and honestly, it's like hell... so those feelings i felt before? not gonna happen anymore..
during that time, i was still into my former lover.. now my ex...
but after 2 years, meaning the moment of truth that im facing now in my life, this is totally different. cos, my heart isn't numb anymore. this time is forreal. i am truly accepting all the pains, heartaches and sufferings for me to see my real self..
too bad, there's a big difference from 2 years ago and now.. cos this time., i don't want to get back with her anymore.. this time, it's about me and how to save what's left in me.. it's about standing on my own without her to support me, cos i am finally realizing that, not everything is about her. i can't live a life depending it on a gal even tho i still love her.. this time, my priority is my life, and how to love myself more..
it's the truth that i gotta face. it's nothing but the TRUTH. Labels: experiences of life |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 4/17/2011 05:44:00 PM |
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as time passes by, memories are slowly drifting away.
the clock is ticking, moving at the same phase of speed, just like the cycle of night and day.
as i go find my own place, i see myself hanging in the end of the line.
trying to hold on so i won't end up falling into the big hole.
my grip seems to be stronger than before, but my soul's shouting out
making my heart skip a beat everytime i miss the chance.
all i wanted is to get the connection that i needed, to be able to see things clear,
to end things smoothly, to start a new chapter and to end an ugly story.
i choose my own direction, blame less or blame more, cos in the end,
it's still within me. no one can predict cos my mind spins like there's no ending
full of thoughts that are trapped inside this big head,
never ending conversations, the truth is still needed.
as i move forward, see me as someone who you never think i am. Labels: experiences of life |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 4/17/2011 05:33:00 PM |
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| Saturday, April 9, 2011 |
| damn !!! |
Damn!!
Can't I change??
I am fed up with my "fickle mindedness"!
I can't decide what to eat!
I can't decide what to wear!
What to say, what to do. . . . .
What do I want exactly! I don't know!!!
Yeah this is been there all my life. . .
Every time I take up a decision I always think. . ."Did I do the right thing? No I shouldn't have done it!"
Man! Believe me this sucks!
Why life is full of regrets always. . . .
I dream of becoming best animator one day. . .
Complete my animation course. . .
But . . . now the damn question is am I capable?
Or do I have pretend and hide my weakness just as did infront of all!!
whatever. . .
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| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 4/09/2011 07:35:00 PM |
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| Tuesday, April 5, 2011 |
| not everyone was born to love |
Not every one was born to love you
So I must tell you now that many will hurt you
Many will pass you by
And take your beautiful words as if your speaking lies
Do what ever is in there power to see you cry
Discard your words
As if they where words they never heard
Some will just want your body
And yet other will always ignore your company
Such a tragedy to see some one as beautiful as you suffering
Many will cause you pain
By walking out on you someday
Not realizing what they had in front of them that day
Other will try to change everything about you
And that is because they simply don’t love you
Many will find a ways to make you mad
Some will even toy with your emotions to make them laugh
All this thing will no doubt make me sad
All because, you see I was born to love you
To take care of you when no one wants you
Be there when the hole world has left you
When you cry it is my duty to hold you tight
When your sad it is my mission to make you glad
At your worst let you know that no one comes first
Yes those are my desires for you
All because I was really born to love you
by-Raymond Valadez Labels: collection |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 4/05/2011 06:48:00 PM |
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| FRIENDSHIP, LIFE, DREAM ON |
Life is incomplete without friendship, love and goal in life.
Yesterday I was talking to a friend of mine, who is now a author to my blog also…. We were discussing about dreams… and she told me she wanted to do something big, help peoples who don’t have anyone to help them……. And as we were talking suddenliy I got an idea of opening our own firm… den we decided to make a animation house……. We could teach students who always dreamt of doing or learning animation but never could afford it… we would train them and also provide them job… and we started dreaming of making this firm India’s best animation house…. Dunno why I really want to make this happen……. Now I feel someway I can make my dreams come true… though I lost many true n gud friend… but now I am making some gud friends and I feel this friendship is gonna be there for a lifetime……..
Now we have dared to dream… and its now turn to put on our efforts to make it come true…… its about to begin :- FRIENDSHIP, LIFE, DREAM ON………
We will achieve our goals…. And prove our worthiness to everyone……. Labels: discovering aditya, experiences of life, Journey of Animation |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 4/05/2011 05:06:00 PM |
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| Saturday, April 2, 2011 |
| time now n then |
I wanna go back to the time
When “Innocence” was “Natural”
When “Getting high” meant “On a swing”
When “Drinking” meant “Rasna Orange”
When “Dad” was the only “Hero”
When “Love” was “Mom’s hug”
When “Dad’s shoulder” was the “The highest place on earth”
When your “Worst enemies” were your “Siblings”
When the only thing that could “Hurt” where “Bleeding knees”
When the only things “Broken” were “Toys”
And when “Goodbyes” only meant “Till Tomorrow”
Life has changed a lot!!
As “Innocence” is “Humor”
As “Getting high” meant “a pack of cigarette”
As “Drinking” means “Beer Beer Beer Beer Beer Beer”
As “Love” is “ biggest lie”
As our “Worst enemies” is “my possessiveness ”
As the only thing that could “Hurt” is when memories hunt"
Labels: experiences of life |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 4/02/2011 01:38:00 PM |
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| Friday, April 1, 2011 |
| cell gone |
Wow……. Its been a week today…. I broke my cell…….. I really was fed up wid it…. Once I was getting out of sms balance and used to get 20000+ sms and for a month not even 10 wow…. Peoples are really fed up wid me and I am fed up with me cell…. And a big BANG………. And cell gone…. And now I am feeling so weird…. 1st time in 7 years I dun have cell…………. * sob * sob* Labels: experiences of life, Journey of Animation |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 4/01/2011 06:47:00 PM |
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| awesome lines i read on net |
Take chances. Tell the truth. Date someone totally wrong for you. Say no. Spend all your cash! Fall in love. Get to know someone random. Be random. Say I love you. Sing out loud. Laugh at a stupid joke. Cry. Get revenge. Apologize. Tell someone how much they mean to you. Tell the asshole what you feel. Let someone know what theyre missing. Laugh til your stomach hurts. LIVE LIFE! Labels: nice line |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 4/01/2011 04:30:00 PM |
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