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| Monday, January 31, 2011 |
| dream n reality |
People ask me why I sleep so much... why I love to dream. Well, it's not hard to see. In my dreams, I get to be happy. I get to be with my baby, loving each other with no limits, and just living life the way I want it. Then I wake to reality of misery and depression. Who wouldn't want to dream? Labels: some thing missng in adi's heart |
posted by Sachin Shresta @ 1/31/2011 11:47:00 AM  |
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Somehow the conversation mentioned your name. And someone asked if I knew you. Looking away I thought of all the times we had together; sharing laughter, tears, jokes, and tons more. And then, without explanation you were gone. I looked to where they were waiting for an answer, and then said softly, 'Once, I thought I did.'" You told me that you loved me, I started tearing down those walls. I really started to trust you but you set me up to take the fall......
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| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 1/31/2011 11:46:00 AM |
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The more I try to make a move, I fail, the more I try to make a new start, I reach the place where I started long back….. and those memories, those days… every thing makes a flash back and I’m again sent back to same solitude, atleast den I had friends who understood me, but now…. Its me just standing alone on the edge where nothing seems right, and I’m all wrong… really I though with a new year I would make a new beginning I failed….. failed to make a new beginning, failed to make new friend, fed up of these feelings….. people ignore me, don’t even care to ask me how am i…. now I decided… I dun need anyone…. Now would msg anyone… or expect anything……….. what if I’m alone… I can go one… may be as a loner, sober, loser, so wat I’m alive… wat if I am quitting… I’m not quitting life.,………… wat if peoples criticize… I won’t say a word… coz mistake was mine and it’s me who deserves to suffer alone…………. Labels: discovering aditya |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 1/31/2011 11:43:00 AM |
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| Saturday, January 29, 2011 |
| regrets |
I can't believe I just gave up. I just let you drop out of my life. I tried to make you stay, then one day it just got too hard and I saw what you really wanted was a life without me. So I gave up and now you're really gone. I wish I could make you come back, but tears, wishes, and reminiscing do nothing but make my heart break a little more Labels: some thing missng in adi's heart |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 1/29/2011 05:47:00 PM |
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| heart aches n probs |
I remember every word you said, okay? I'm not that naive and I'm not that stupid. I've been broken before, I can deal. I'm not scared of moving on with my life. What I'm scared of is that I'll realize somewhere along the road, that you were my life
My life is falling apart and nothing is going my way. It seems like everything is not how it should be. It was when I was with you that I felt great, like nothing mattered and everything was fine. Now that you're gone I have to deal with my problems. Labels: some thing missng in adi's heart |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 1/29/2011 02:33:00 PM |
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I hate being put in this position.. I'm forcing myself to let go of the one person that I need in my life. She's the only thing that makes sense, but at the same time, the one thing that complicates me.. I know that I'm better off without her, yet I feel empty whenever I try to let go...but I guess that emptiness is better than constant hurt. Labels: some thing missng in adi's heart |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 1/29/2011 02:30:00 AM |
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| Friday, January 28, 2011 |
| my Heart aches |
It's when I'm standing six feet away from you and not being able to find the words to tell you how much I love you and how much I miss you that I want to just scream to the whole room that I'm still in love with you. It's when I'm sitting alone with the phone in my hand dialing your number and hanging up that I would trade a thousand tomorrows for just one yesterday. Then I could just call you to tell you goodnight. It's when I am really sad about something and need someone to talk to that I realize you're the only one who really knew me at all. It's when I cry myself to sleep at night and it hits me how much I would give to hold you at that very moment. It's when I think about you that I realize no one else in the world is meant for me. Labels: some thing missng in adi's heart |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 1/28/2011 11:25:00 AM |
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| My aching heart |
It's so hard to say, 'I love you,' and not draw back in tears. Its so hard to know that your not there to help me face my fears. It's so hard to know the phone's at reach, but I cannot hear your voice. It's so hard to see you laughing when I'm crying deep inside. It's so hard to just find feelings and now have to make them hide. It's so hard to live without you, when I need you more then words. I want to scream how much I love you but hold back and not be heard. It's so hard to go to sleep at night when I cannot dream of you. It's so hard to think that you might fall in love with someone new. It's so hard to not start crying when I hear your favorite song. It's so hard to sit and wonder, where did I go wrong? It's so hard to live without you, if I only would have known, I will never love another, I would rather be alone. Labels: some thing missng in adi's heart |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 1/28/2011 12:24:00 AM |
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| Thursday, January 27, 2011 |
| Aching Heart........ |
No one will love me or care about me the way you did and I think that's what scares me the most, the fact that for so long you were mine, my life, my everything so now when I have to say good-bye how do I not cry, hurt and want you back?
I remember the worst...I think of the times I cried. I thought I couldn't hurt more but I was wrong. Because the pain of losing you then doesn't at all compare to what I feel now. Because the pain I feel now is the pain of knowing that I will never even get the chance to lose you again.
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| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 1/27/2011 02:23:00 AM |
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| Wednesday, January 26, 2011 |
| Aching Hearts...... |
I can't believe I just gave up. I just let you drop out of my life. I tried to make you stay, then one day it just got too hard and I saw what you really wanted was a life without me. So I gave up and now you're really gone. I wish I could make you come back, but tears, wishes, and reminiscing do nothing but make my heart break a little more Labels: some thing missng in adi's heart |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 1/26/2011 02:21:00 PM |
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| Tuesday, January 25, 2011 |
| lonely |
Cannot go forward, cannot go back,
Wishing that I could drop dead in my tracks.
I know I am leaving something behind,
And it is tearing my spirit inside.
Choices have always made me aware
Of contradictions in me - so unfair!
It seems that it all has to come down to me.
I wonder if someone my struggles can see?
Self-hatred, self-torment - familiar sight!
Alone, be alone, and from it all hide -
That's my first impulse that won't get me far.
Is that way for many, or is it my star?
Maybe I should have simply there stayed,
And prevented the so unknown fate
That chills me and makes me so scared.
Who knows how I would have otherwise faired?
But my life has passed in change after change,
Now in security I feel too strange,
And my restless heart does make me go on.
Moving and shifting is ever my song! Labels: Lonely Sachin |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 1/25/2011 07:46:00 PM |
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| Saturday, January 22, 2011 |
| fraustrated |
As the days and the weeks past. I just find myself lonelier and more sad than I was the day before. Nothing makes sense anymore and I'm just bored with life. Nothing interests me and I'm annoyed with people. I'm always overlooked about everything, never too cute to get a date,not interesting enough to make a friend. I'm always overlooked for everything and I just lack attention from people. I don't care to make friends or whatever because I really want to be alone most of the time. Alot of times, I just spend my day soaking in the house.
I'm conflicted, sometimes I can be fine being alone & sometimes it really makes me sad and it gets to me. I like to make something out of my life but I feel like everything I do is not good enough. I'm never satisfied with what I did or what I've done. It was like this in school, I was always the weird guy to people. People didn't like me, I wasn't an all flat out nerd, but I was just quiet and different and I guess people looked at me differently because of it.I tried my best to try to fit in with people but it didn't work. I tried being the class clown, I tried to be popular and I tried to be more social and outgoing, but it still led me to lonely nights. I was never invited to parties or just invited to go anywhere with friends.
So it's not matter what I do, it doesn't seem like I'll ever be happy & this worries me. I'm so frustrated tonight because I know,that tonight there are people out there having fun & everything is just looking so great for them, but I don't know... I'm lost I guess.. Sometimes I break down & cry because of this..
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| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 1/22/2011 05:38:00 PM |
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| Thursday, January 20, 2011 |
| i broke trust |
Though I broke my promise and your trust,
My love for you remains as strong as ever.
I know it must mean little to swear never
Again to break my word, and yet I must.
What else can I do? Your fury's just,
But all my world will darken if you sever
My heart from yours. Please wait, and I'll endeavor
To blow new life into this mound of dust.
All that you require of me I'll do
And more, if what you ask leaves room for more.
Thus time will heal this wound and leave no scar.
Since I now know the pain of losing you,
I'll be yours more than I could before,
And you will see what my true feelings are.
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| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 1/20/2011 06:01:00 PM |
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| Wednesday, January 19, 2011 |
| me n arround |
Raindrops fall from the sky
As blood drips from my eye
The ground rips and resists
As I cut open my wrists
Sunlight fails to shine
Darkness becomes my shrine
Fire shoots up in the air
As my soul I declare
This demon from hell to take
The anger I can’t fake
Cold fingers of darkness reach for my hand
As lightening wreaks havoc on the land
Evil courses through my veins
My heart pounding as it strains
Now that I’ve told you what I’ve become
It’s more true to you than some
But if you try to save me from this fateLabels: Lonely Sachin |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 1/19/2011 01:34:00 PM |
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I saw a picture of you yesterday
When I looked at it I walked away
I see myself in you all the time
You were there for me when i didnt have a dime
I always think were could you be
And why your with her and not me
I’m lost with out you
My skies are gray not blue
Welll what im trying to say is that I miss you alot
And I’ll be back for you I just got to think of a plot!!!Labels: Lonely Sachin |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 1/19/2011 01:26:00 PM |
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| Friday, January 14, 2011 |
| why |
Why? Why this has to happen?
Sorrows like a celebration...
Though getting wounded again
and again, won't you leave it?
who did everything to keep others happy...
who sacrificed self for other's happiness...
When will you know the truth?
Who will let the secret out?
Don't leave me in exile...
Why is your pure heart wounded?
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| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 1/14/2011 03:59:00 AM |
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| Wednesday, January 12, 2011 |
| Its all my fault |
I’m stuck in a hole,
No one there,
People walk past.
And don’t even care.
I’m a loner,
And that’s what I don’t like,
It makes me sad, angry,
And it makes me cry.
I’m crushed,
Head to toe,
I’m so sad,
It makes me mad.
You left me,
Your living me for ever,
Why you doing this to me,
My life is in ruins now you’ve gone.
I’m sat on my own,
No one to pick me up.
I lie here thinking,
It’s all my fault.Labels: Lonely Sachin |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 1/12/2011 04:24:00 PM |
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| Saturday, January 8, 2011 |
| BROKEN PROMISES |
Look at how you turned on me
You ran away and left me here with nothing to say
I'm a man so turn around and say it to me
Don't you think I've got something to say
Look at how you turned on me
You ran away and left me here with nothing to say
I'm a man so turn around and say it to me
Don't you think I've got something to say
Now look at how you turned on me
You ran away and left me here with nothing to say
I'm a man so turn around and say it to me
Don't you think I've got something to say
And now we're left with BROKEN PROMISES
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| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 1/08/2011 01:43:00 AM |
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You promised me that you will love.
You promised me that you would stay.
You promised me that you would take my heart and never give away.
You promised me that you'd never cheat.
You promised me that you'd never change.
You promised me you'll never leave.
Promises you never kept.
But every promise that was broken, right before it could ever reach me.
You never wanted to give me, the lies you made me believe in.
But every promise that's been broken, right before it could ever reach me.
You never wanted to give me, the lies you made me believe in.
These are the reasons why I left.
You never should've gave me broken promises.Labels: Lonely Sachin |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 1/08/2011 01:42:00 AM |
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| Thursday, January 6, 2011 |
| lonely |
I’m A Lonely Road Of
Broken Dreams
Its A Boulevard That
I’m Searching For
These Stars Are All So Dull
Its The Moon That I’m
Searching For
Happiness Is So Angry At Me
Its Life That I’m
Searching For
There Is A Crowd
Around Me At All Times
Its a Friend That I’m
Searching For
My Life Is Just Like Path
Its A Destination That
I’m Searching For
Don’t Know What Is It
That I’ve Lost
May Be Its ‘ME’ That
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