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| Thursday, December 30, 2010 |
| new beginning |
To I am making a new beginning, after losing my dreams…. I am giving another chance to life…. Most of my close friends desolated me…. But still I stand alone…….and now I will make new friends…. New world… and this time I will win… wow just one day and a new year starts… hope this year brings me…. Success, happiness and stability in life…. Wish I get praised by all….. Now its my family my 1st priority coz my dreams always let me down and made me feel guilty……… wish every one a very happy new year…………. Labels: life |
posted by Sachin Shresta @ 12/30/2010 04:06:00 PM  |
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| Saturday, December 18, 2010 |
| empty, lonely, broken |
Today I am feeling so bad…. Bad coz I was humiliated…. Felt bad coz I was misleading someone….. my friend who lended money called a friend of mine and seeked about me …. He badly needs money…. I promised to give in two days…. I dunno how I’m gonna do that…. A guy again suggested me that I should go for organ donation…… wish I could someone who would pay me gud…. I would not step back…. I so badly need money…. Have not been home for last 10 days… spending nights in café…….. being here and there…….. what I had dreamt of being a famous animator and what I am now…. Will go home in morning and do whatever my mom asks me to and if I get a chance will donate a organ…….. wanna end all probs….. want to give happiness to my family atleast………. Can’t be reason for everyone’s sadness………. I am just a worthless guy who doesn’t know what he is born for………. I just keep listen to the song “emptiness” and keep feeling so lonely yeah….. and keeps searching a better place from this emptiness……….. oh ho……… mr lonely is lonely forever……… with broken dreams………….. shattered heart…… lost soul………. Labels: Journey of Animation, life, Lonely Sachin |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 12/18/2010 04:06:00 AM |
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| Friday, December 10, 2010 |
| making moeny my aim |
I donno why this emptiness is engulfing me…….. now I am having wish to have money…. I feel any means is fair……. Just want to have so much money that I can buy everything……. Money is god…….. I feel like I’m dying…. And I know why its happening………. Sooner or later I would fade into ashes…. Before I leave everyone….. I want to give all happiness and things that my family expected from me….. want to fulfill my responsibilities……… lets see how fast I can make money…. How fast I become a rich guy…….. coz right now I’m just a poor nerd…. Who’s pocket full of rags… and still now I love those lines….
I ain’t a rich kid, just a poor nerd,
Ain’t got no money, my pockets full of mud.
Faded jeans and ragged shirts, thank god they are in,
Cuz those are the only things I have to fit in.
So if you are that kinda gal, who just goes for money.
You can check out Harry, he's got a big limousine.
All I have got is unconditional love.
All I can promise you is I’ll be there when the things are tough.
No I can’t promise you dinner in golden plates.
No I can’t promise you disco nights so late.
We can get a candle or two and light up my place.
Maybe wash some crockery, order pizzas at low rate.
No lousy music, my guitar gently plays
A song, written, especially for you babe.
All I have got is unconditional love.
All I can promise you is I’ll be there when the sea is rough.
Sad but it took me late to realize that in todays world all matters is money…. Even a small requirement needs money….. just now I’m in quest of making money…… hope to be rich guy soon……..
Labels: Journey of Animation, life |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 12/10/2010 02:39:00 AM |
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| Emptiness ........ what i have now....... |
Ho love of mine..
with a song and a whine..
You’re harsh and divine..
like truths and a lie..
but the tale end is not here..
I’ve nothing to fear..
for my love is yell of giving and hold on…
in the bright emptiness..
in a room full of it..
is the cruel mistress ho ho o…
I feel the sunrise..
that nest all hollowness..
for i have the way to go.. not come…
And i feel so lonely yea..
There’s a better place from this emptiness..
And i’m so lonely yea..
There’s a better please from this emptiness..
Tune mere jaana..
Kabhi nahi jana..
Ishq mera dard mera.. haaye…
Tune mere jaana..
Kabhi nahi jana..
Ishq mera dard mera …
Aashiq teraaa..
Bheed mein khoya rehta hai..
Jaane jahaan a..
Puchho toh itna kehta hai..
And i feel so lonely yea..
There’s a better place from this emptiness..
this is dedicated someone from my past..... awesome song by rohan rathore who died 15 days after recording this song........ he dedicated it to his gal.... i am doing it to my pastLabels: past |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 12/10/2010 02:21:00 AM |
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| Wednesday, December 8, 2010 |
| me complicated |
Why is everything, with me so complicated?
Why do i make it hard to love me-
While you ha---te it?
Cause if i really wanna be alone,Labels: Journey of Animation, life |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 12/08/2010 07:37:00 PM |
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| wow its december again |
Wow…….. its so chilled out here……… now I have kinda decided…. This month which is end of the year and may be gonna be end of my dreams……. I am now quitting animation as it not meant for me…… kehte hain agar kuch tumhare liye tay hai toh tum lakh kosis karo use badal nahi paoge…. Shayd yeah mere liye kabhi bana hi nahi tha…. Meine apne hise ki kosis kar li…. Ab aur nai….. now I have to think about my family…. My responsibilities…… they have decided things for my future…. And may be I’m gonna join defence services……. Will do anything make them happy……. Atleast I’m happy that I gave my everything for my dream…….. so this month…… really is unlucky for me…….. December 2008 took away something that was my soul, December 2009 took away my heart………… and now December 2010 is taking away my dream……. May be December 2011 is gonna take away my breaths and life……… Labels: Journey of Animation, life |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 12/08/2010 03:19:00 PM |
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| Saturday, December 4, 2010 |
| never ending probs |
Though now a days my blog too has no reader……. I still prefer to write…. I have no one whom I can complain to…. Whom I can tell my probs…. Can seek help…. But still being isolated soothes….. I not disturbing anyone….. not making anyone stressed with my probs….. I’m alone as I used to be…… moving on my probs that never gonna end…. Having huge burden of debt…. Cousin asked me to return his 25000 as soon as possible…….. have to pay 150000 to insti anyhow even if I’m quitting……… nothings I soothing now…. I’m just standing in a crowd….. wishing if some miracle could happen or some help could be delivered….. so helpless….. so numb…. So alone am I !!!!! Labels: Journey of Animation |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 12/04/2010 02:29:00 AM |
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| Thursday, December 2, 2010 |
| so lonely |
Yesterday my batchmate told me that accountant of my institute resigned from her job, reason was that there was some probs with account and somewhere I feel I too am responsible for it…. She used to help me and I could not do anything for her….. I’m so helpless….. and den my very old friend champa called and told me that I’m changed and made me realized thati always say that I will give up or quit but I never quit in real…. Somewhere I always keep on trying to set things right…….. and I feel now also I’m doing same….. wish I had got help in right time den I could have help my accountant…… anyway what happened cannot be changed….. mistakes can’t be changed….. but I feel I have hurted a lot of people and made a wall around me…… and now I feel so alone…… so helpless………. So lonely…… Labels: Lonely Sachin |
| posted by Sachin Shresta @ 12/02/2010 05:32:00 AM |
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