Loneliness is the feeling of being alone, be it physical,
emotional, or spiritual. It is a strong feeling, strong enough that it can even
drive people into psychotic episodes and suicidal fits of rage. The pain that
it can bring drives down right into our souls and throwing us into total
darkness.
I would like to quote what Orson Welles once said. He said
that we are born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and
friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone. The
moment that we create illusions for ourselves is called life. Perhaps that is
why we feel lonely even in that particular moment that we are supposed to
create illusions for ourselves to escape loneliness. Enough of facts, let's go
on to personal experience.
In this wonderful journey called life, we are filled with
many emotions which are inevitable, and among these emotions, the emotion that
stings me the most is loneliness. Nobody can journey their life alone, utterly.
When I was a teen, i disconnected myself from the world outside and made my
world on internet, and today when i see my other class mates, i realise what i
have lost and what they gained. i missed the part, where they made loads of
friends, i too made many friends but they were only on internet, their
existance was there till was online or i had cell phone, till we chatted,
texted or talked over calls. after the calls ended, texted stopped or chats
ended, i was left alone. and then the pain that stings your mind, your heart,
your soul, your spirit known as loneliness. For me to watch a person suffering
from loneliness is like watching a patient dying from cancer. After all, some
cancer patients are lonely too. For I can feel the stinging pain of loneliness,
I always had a soft spot for loners.
Among all the feelings I've experienced either putting
myself into others' shoes or based on my personal experience, loneliness is the
worst feeling I could ever imagine. It is worse than any physical harm can do
to me and mind you, It is worse than any emotional conflicts I have ever encountered
for I have been humiliated, embarrassed, yelled at, ignored, told I was no
good, being insulted, given hurtful nicknames and the list goes as long as a
receipt you would receive when you empty the goods in a shopping mall. Life on
this planet is never easy and that is why we can move on only with the help of
others, of those who care. Going through life alone, walking down the paths of
darkness in a one-man journey, is not totally impossible, but your mind, your
soul, your heart will definitely and repeatedly tell you to leave this world
and find friends in another world instead.
From my point of view, a loner is just a nice person lost in
the crowd. A shy, quiet person who has not found himself, lack of confidence or
was not given any chance to join the crowd, in short, ignored. I strongly
advise each and every citizen of planet Earth to reach out for these lonely
people who can be nice and talented in several ways yet to be discovered
instead of cornering ourselves with our own assembly gossiping about how weird,
odd, eccentric, inscrutable and dreadful that loner is, which can be hurtful
and demotivating. No matter how busy you are, you can still make time for
yourself. So, why not for others who need them? Donating a few minutes of your
bathing time or time for meals would not mean that you cannot bathe, eat,
breathe or continue what you wanted to do. It only means less of it, and a
little for others. If you can not make time for others, one day, nobody is
gonna make time for you, and thereafter, you will be thrown in the valleys of
darkness, accompanied by the excruciating, crucifying pain called loneliness.
And this blog is a part of me where i learnt to befriend my
loneliness..... its all ME N MY LONELINESS and how i started writing here..
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